Nha van Stephen Gill:

"Chua Kito a xoa du

cn khat hoa bnh trong toi"

 

Nha van Stephen Gill: "Chua Kito a xoa du cn khat hoa bnh trong toi".

Ngoc Yen

Canada (Vat. 11-05-2019) - Nha van Stephen Gill xuat than t mot gia nh Kito, nhng khong xac tn vao niem tin ma ong a lanh nhan. Sau mot qua kh ay nhng hoai nghi va noi au tinh than ong tm kiem Thien Chua cac ton giao khac, nhng tat ca a khong xoa du cn khat hoa bnh trong ong. Cuoi cung ong nhan ra rang ch co "Chua Kito la Thai t hoa bnh".

Ong Stephen Gill, nha van ngi Canaa goc An, sinh Pakistan. Ong song thi th au New Delhi cung gia nh, xa nhng ngi than con Pakistan. Nhng cuoc bach hai ton giao buoc hang ngan Kito hu phai chay tron e lai trong ong dau an sau sac, trong nhieu nam no van la mot ieu khong yen on trong cuoc tm kiem cho s bnh an noi tam. T khi con nho ong luon tm kiem Thien Chua va v ly do nay ong tiep xuc cac ton giao. Khong co ton giao nao thoa man ong. Cuoi cung, ong hieu rang chnh Chua Kito a lam du "cn khat" cua ong, ac biet la "khao khat hoa bnh". Di ay la cau chuyen cua ong c chnh ong ke lai:

Cuoc song cua toi la mot cuon sach m, va toi muon no van nh vay. oi vi di san ton giao cua toi, toi biet c qua me toi. Ba ke lai rang ong ba cua toi la Kito hu. Ho a tr ve vi Kito giao sau khi gap mot so nha truyen giao va cac nha truyen giao o a day me toi tr thanh giao vien tieu hoc.

Mac du toi c sinh ra trong mot gia nh Kito giao, toi van co nhng hoai nghi. Toi a tng t hoi tai sao cac Kito hu b bat hai khap ni. Phai co mot cai g o sai trong Kito giao. Khi toi en Canada, trong nhieu nam, toi a t bo Kito giao cung vi nhng hoai nghi. Trc o toi khong hoc ve Kito giao cung nh en vi nhng sinh hoat Kito giao. nha, chung toi khong oc Kinh thanh hay cau nguyen, ngoai viec vao cac ngay Chua nhat i en nha th Cong giao. Chung toi khong co c hanh nao ac biet cho Giang sinh va Phuc sinh. Noi tom lai, toi khong c tha hng bat ky qua kh manh me va anh hng cua Kito giao.

Ket qua t nhng cau chuyen cua me toi ve cac Kito hu b bach hai a thuc ay toi bat au oc cac bai viet ve ton giao e hieu neu Kito giao thc s xau. o la thi gian toi bat au ghet tat ca cac ton giao. Toi cam thay ong cam hn vi nhng ngi theo chu ngha Marxist va xa hoi chu ngha v ho co ac cam vi ton giao.

Toi rat that vong khi thay s au kho va tren het la gia nh toi phai chu ng vo ly; toi tr thanh ngi vo than. Toi tham gia cac vao cac nhom Marxist va vo than, oc cac bai viet cua ho va tham gia cac cuoc hop cua ho. Toi tm thay mot bo sach hay ve chu ngha vo than. Toi khong biet lam the nao cha toi phat hien ra s quan tam cua toi. Mot ngay no, khi toi vang mat, ong ot tat ca cac t ri va sach va bat au kiem soat toi tranh xa nhng ngi ban vo than.

Toi khong phai la mot ngi vo than thc s b thuyet phuc, giong nh toi cung khong phai la mot Kito hu b thuyet phuc. Ro rang, toi van khat. Moi quan tam cua toi oi vi hoa bnh tiep tuc manh me hn na. Toi a ngh en viec bat au dan dan tr lai vi Thien Chua, nhng viec toi tm kiem mot ton giao ch cho toi con ng ung en vi hoa bnh khong bao gi cham lai. Ket qua cua nhng li cau nguyen cua toi vi Chua va vi ngi khac, mot so phep la a bat au xay ra trong cuoc song cua toi. Phep mau v ai nhat la ri khoi An o, ieu nay thc te la khong the.

Canada, toi bat au quan tam en cac ton giao Do Thai, Phat giao, Baha-i va Hoi giao. Co mot lan toi a lien lac vi mot ngi theo ao Do Thai e theo ton giao cua ho. Trong khi o, niem tin vao Baha-i me hoac tr tue cua toi v cach giai quyet van e hoa bnh. Toi a thao luan va nghien cu cac cuon sach cua ao nay va cach tiep can hoa bnh. Toi van duy tr mot bo su tap cac luan van ve niem tin Baha-i. Cuoi cung, toi a tr thanh mot Baha-i va nhan c the thanh vien. Dan dan toi biet rang ho khong khuyen khch nhng ngi theo ho tham gia cac hoat ong chnh tr. Baha-i tot khong thc hien quyen bau c. Ho tin rang he thong chnh tr la tham nhung, do o, khong hoat ong chnh tr la cach e anh bai he thong nay. Toi hoan toan ong y vi y tng cua ho, nhng khong phai vi phng phap hoa bnh ma ho s dung. V ieu nay va v nhng ly do khac, toi a ri bo nhng ngi tot nay.

Tuy nhien, toi tiep tuc nghien cu tm kiem c tin e co cha khoa cho hoa bnh va tnh yeu vo ieu kien. Muc tieu cua toi la thuyet phuc tr tue cua toi. Cuoi cung, cac nghien cu cua toi a thuyet phuc toi rang nhng li day cua Chua Kito la cach e at c hoa bnh, va con ng hoa bnh nay la con ng cua ang toan nang. V con ng cua Chua Kito la con ng cua ang toan nang, va c ban cho cuoc song thc te khong t vet, nen Chua Kito c goi la Hoang t cua Hoa bnh. Thay v t goi mnh la Kito hu, toi t goi mnh la tn o tai sinh cua Chua Kito. Toi tr nen trung thanh vi Chua Kito mot lan na nh vao viec hoc va kinh nghiem than b cua toi. Nghien cu ve cuoc i va giao ly cua Chua Kito trong gan 10 nam, toi co the noi mot cach khach quan rang Chua Kito la hien than cua tnh yeu vo ieu kien va tnh yeu vo ieu kien la me cua hoa bnh vt xa s hieu biet cua con ngi.

 


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